1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:03,060 Previously on Brilliant Mind. I talked to Mrs. Torres. We came up with a new 2 00:00:03,060 --> 00:00:06,400 plan for Jorge's treatment. You don't speak to another family member without 3 00:00:06,400 --> 00:00:07,840 present. This reaction is irrational. 4 00:00:08,200 --> 00:00:09,200 Get out of my office. 5 00:00:09,940 --> 00:00:14,740 Now! She wanted more time. You gave her that. You extended her life. And it felt 6 00:00:14,740 --> 00:00:16,280 like I extended her death. 7 00:00:16,620 --> 00:00:19,860 Michelle, we were so good together. What happened? We didn't communicate. 8 00:00:20,220 --> 00:00:21,220 Are you guys back together? 9 00:00:21,240 --> 00:00:22,240 Yeah, we are. 10 00:00:23,610 --> 00:00:27,250 30 -year -old schizoaffective male complaining of daily chest pains. What's 11 00:00:27,250 --> 00:00:28,850 going on? It's a sign of liver failure. 12 00:00:29,190 --> 00:00:31,930 Whether right or wrong, you simply cannot get a transplant if you're 13 00:00:31,930 --> 00:00:34,870 alone. Sam, there are some people here to see you. 14 00:00:35,130 --> 00:00:36,550 I haven't had to know because they won't let me leave. 15 00:00:36,930 --> 00:00:38,650 We won't be fighting back anymore. 16 00:00:40,490 --> 00:00:41,490 Isn't that right, Oliver? 17 00:00:45,030 --> 00:00:48,610 Your escape back tonight reminded me of that little stunt you pulled at the 18 00:00:48,610 --> 00:00:49,609 hospital gala. 19 00:00:49,610 --> 00:00:50,610 You remember that? 20 00:00:51,090 --> 00:00:53,060 At the time, I thought this guy was... Force. 21 00:00:53,540 --> 00:00:54,540 But in a good way. 22 00:00:54,960 --> 00:00:57,640 Now, the staff member you assaulted needs stitches. 23 00:00:58,060 --> 00:01:00,620 You're holding me against my will. I want to leave. 24 00:01:03,540 --> 00:01:05,019 We have been over this, Oliver. 25 00:01:07,200 --> 00:01:11,400 I am worried that you have not made any progress since you came to us. 26 00:01:12,240 --> 00:01:16,140 Voluntarily, I might add. You're paranoid, you're defensive, you won't 27 00:01:16,140 --> 00:01:17,140 help you. 28 00:01:17,420 --> 00:01:19,600 It's high time we be honest about why you're here. 29 00:01:20,230 --> 00:01:22,970 Either we talk about him or we keep doing the same song and dance. 30 00:01:38,310 --> 00:01:39,310 Elongate. 31 00:02:17,230 --> 00:02:20,830 I've never had an attendant yell at me like that, Terry. 32 00:02:21,850 --> 00:02:22,850 It was disturbing. 33 00:02:24,210 --> 00:02:27,750 Unprofessional, borderline psychotic. I mean, Dr. Wolf is completely out of 34 00:02:27,750 --> 00:02:28,790 line. Yeah, that's fair. 35 00:02:28,990 --> 00:02:32,950 We've spent an inordinate amount of time in our sessions talking about your 36 00:02:32,950 --> 00:02:33,948 boss. 37 00:02:33,950 --> 00:02:37,310 You've got to remember that holding on to anger is like... Like drinking poison 38 00:02:37,310 --> 00:02:39,310 and expecting the other person to die. Yeah. 39 00:02:39,890 --> 00:02:43,170 You work together, right? Yeah, you've got to learn how to coexist. 40 00:02:43,710 --> 00:02:46,070 I think he's misjudged you. My advice? 41 00:02:46,510 --> 00:02:47,950 Trying to show them who you really are. 42 00:02:51,150 --> 00:02:52,150 That I can do. 43 00:03:00,850 --> 00:03:04,190 Isn't this a little premature? We still have leftovers from Thanksgiving. 44 00:03:04,470 --> 00:03:08,610 I don't care. This is my favorite time of year. Tree lighting at Rockefeller 45 00:03:08,610 --> 00:03:11,690 Center. All the window displays on 5th Avenue. 46 00:03:11,950 --> 00:03:13,830 Our hospital holiday gala. 47 00:03:16,490 --> 00:03:17,490 Sweet memories. 48 00:03:17,530 --> 00:03:18,530 Oh. 49 00:03:19,510 --> 00:03:25,170 Like my little Ollie coming back from school with the most peculiar homemade 50 00:03:25,170 --> 00:03:26,650 ornament. It's not peculiar. 51 00:03:26,970 --> 00:03:30,810 It's tungsten. I had to corrode the metal with ferric chloride to etch the 52 00:03:30,810 --> 00:03:33,990 chemical symbol on it. Quite the feat for a third grader. 53 00:03:35,770 --> 00:03:42,170 So, I know how you hate the pomp and circumstance of hospital galas, so you 54 00:03:42,170 --> 00:03:43,530 my permission to skip tonight. 55 00:03:44,010 --> 00:03:45,010 It's a little... 56 00:03:45,210 --> 00:03:46,590 Burly Christmas gift from me. 57 00:03:46,830 --> 00:03:47,829 What's the catch? 58 00:03:47,830 --> 00:03:48,609 No catch. 59 00:03:48,610 --> 00:03:51,650 Honey, I know that I'm not going to be the one that you turn to for help. 60 00:03:51,870 --> 00:03:56,010 God knows I never turned to my mother when I was in any kind of crisis. But I 61 00:03:56,010 --> 00:03:58,570 want you to understand that it's okay to... Stop. 62 00:03:59,050 --> 00:04:02,990 I can handle the gala if it means you'll stop using these impromptu visits to 63 00:04:02,990 --> 00:04:03,990 psychoanalyze me. 64 00:04:05,130 --> 00:04:06,310 Don't make me change the locks. 65 00:04:12,869 --> 00:04:14,870 That megawatt's my Arkansas, the energy crisis. 66 00:04:15,110 --> 00:04:18,690 What's got you so happy? That sweet taste of freedom after months of 67 00:04:18,690 --> 00:04:23,910 over custody and assets and alimony. My divorce is signed, sealed, and 68 00:04:23,910 --> 00:04:25,010 delivered. That's my girl. 69 00:04:25,870 --> 00:04:28,610 Looks like we both got reason to celebrate. I got my kiss for Christmas. 70 00:04:29,010 --> 00:04:32,770 Starting to see a day where Amy and I can amicably co -parent. Well, amen to 71 00:04:32,770 --> 00:04:36,610 that. How about we toast our wins tonight at the gala? I never say no to 72 00:04:36,610 --> 00:04:38,570 bar. That's my cue. See you tonight? 73 00:04:38,790 --> 00:04:39,790 All right. 74 00:04:45,550 --> 00:04:48,930 Rush office tour of duty in the ED. Welcome back to Neuro. 75 00:04:49,890 --> 00:04:51,130 Never leave us again. 76 00:04:52,610 --> 00:04:54,270 I won't. How can I help? 77 00:04:54,470 --> 00:04:59,650 You got a spare liver? You can start by calling every hospital in a 500 -mile 78 00:04:59,650 --> 00:05:00,650 radius. 79 00:05:00,810 --> 00:05:04,190 No one cares that Sam has his family to support him. Every transplant program 80 00:05:04,190 --> 00:05:08,230 thinks he's too big of a risk because of his schizophrenia. So we're casting a 81 00:05:08,230 --> 00:05:08,849 wider net. 82 00:05:08,850 --> 00:05:11,770 I found a couple shelters he stayed at. They're going to send me character 83 00:05:11,770 --> 00:05:13,830 references. We can see if they strengthen his case. 84 00:05:14,090 --> 00:05:15,090 That's amazing. 85 00:05:15,200 --> 00:05:17,100 Thank you. Look, it's down already. 86 00:05:17,560 --> 00:05:18,560 I'm trying. 87 00:05:19,580 --> 00:05:22,700 Look, I don't have time for this. It's opening night, and I need to get back to 88 00:05:22,700 --> 00:05:25,560 rehearsal. I refuse to let that bitch Nina take my place. 89 00:05:25,840 --> 00:05:26,840 I really hate her. 90 00:05:26,900 --> 00:05:31,920 I'm Dr. Wolf. I'm here for your neuroconsult, and your name is... The 91 00:05:31,920 --> 00:05:32,920 Fairy? 92 00:05:33,080 --> 00:05:37,280 I'm sorry. I'm a huge fan of the City Ballet. My mom took me to the Nutcracker 93 00:05:37,280 --> 00:05:40,280 every year growing up. I'm glad to hear it. Can we skip the formalities and get 94 00:05:40,280 --> 00:05:41,380 me the hell out of here, please? 95 00:05:42,260 --> 00:05:43,260 Uh... 96 00:05:43,820 --> 00:05:44,820 Yes, okay. 97 00:05:45,620 --> 00:05:51,580 So, Juliette, your file says that you had a long ICU stay here for sepsis and 98 00:05:51,580 --> 00:05:55,360 respiratory failure due to bad pneumonia, but you left early against 99 00:05:55,360 --> 00:05:56,259 doctor's advice? 100 00:05:56,260 --> 00:05:58,700 That was nearly three months ago and totally unrelated. 101 00:05:59,060 --> 00:06:03,700 Hi, I'm Dr. Porter. Looks like we were both paged for a consult. Yeah, I have 102 00:06:03,700 --> 00:06:04,559 handled. You can go. 103 00:06:04,560 --> 00:06:07,160 If two doctors speed this up, by all means, stay. 104 00:06:07,900 --> 00:06:10,760 We heard that you fell and hit your head. How are you feeling now? 105 00:06:11,380 --> 00:06:13,220 Please, I never fall. 106 00:06:13,610 --> 00:06:16,270 My partner dropped me during the grandpa on purpose. 107 00:06:16,630 --> 00:06:20,250 He's dumb as rocks and sleeping with my understudy. They've had it out for me 108 00:06:20,250 --> 00:06:21,250 since day one. 109 00:06:21,470 --> 00:06:24,450 Zora, my artistic director, thinks that I'm being paranoid. 110 00:06:24,830 --> 00:06:25,749 Zora Flynn? 111 00:06:25,750 --> 00:06:26,750 She's an institution. 112 00:06:27,010 --> 00:06:28,650 Yep, she'll be there till she dies. 113 00:06:29,110 --> 00:06:32,590 Then they'll probably dip her body in formaldehyde and prop her in a chair 114 00:06:32,590 --> 00:06:34,370 forever. Don't give Dr. Wolfe any ideas. 115 00:06:35,850 --> 00:06:38,490 Okay, just try and relax. 116 00:06:40,880 --> 00:06:42,640 Deep breaths, deep breaths. 117 00:06:43,020 --> 00:06:44,020 My eyes are burning. 118 00:06:44,740 --> 00:06:45,860 Why are my eyes burning? 119 00:06:46,660 --> 00:06:49,340 I feel like I'm frozen. Why is it so cold in here? 120 00:06:50,800 --> 00:06:51,800 Something's happening. 121 00:06:52,540 --> 00:06:55,120 Where am I? Juliet, you're in the hospital. 122 00:06:55,480 --> 00:06:56,900 No, no, I have to get back. 123 00:06:57,900 --> 00:07:00,540 All right, we need a seat stand now. 124 00:07:02,140 --> 00:07:03,800 Juliet is in imaging now. 125 00:07:04,140 --> 00:07:08,360 When we were examining her, she became altered, confused, disoriented. We're 126 00:07:08,360 --> 00:07:12,200 testing to make sure that the fall didn't cause a brain bleed or any other 127 00:07:12,200 --> 00:07:13,119 serious problems. 128 00:07:13,120 --> 00:07:14,360 Her timing could not be worse. 129 00:07:14,820 --> 00:07:16,800 She said her partner dropped her on purpose. 130 00:07:17,140 --> 00:07:21,820 Of course she did. Juliet loves to play the victim. No, she panicked, lost 131 00:07:21,820 --> 00:07:23,880 position, knocked Mikhail down in the process. 132 00:07:24,120 --> 00:07:25,140 This was her fault. 133 00:07:25,440 --> 00:07:29,840 You don't have a very forgiving teaching style, do you? Pot meat kennel. Ballet 134 00:07:29,840 --> 00:07:30,940 is an unforgiving world. 135 00:07:31,260 --> 00:07:32,260 Juliet has. 136 00:07:33,390 --> 00:07:34,390 Incredible promise. 137 00:07:34,750 --> 00:07:37,910 But I admit, I've been worried about her lately. She used to be fearless. 138 00:07:38,670 --> 00:07:39,670 Not anymore. 139 00:07:40,070 --> 00:07:42,430 To be frank, she hasn't been the same since she left your hospital. 140 00:07:42,690 --> 00:07:46,290 Well, to be honest, it's remarkable that she's back to dancing at all. She was 141 00:07:46,290 --> 00:07:50,570 septic, intubated. We would have kept her longer had she agreed to stay. But 142 00:07:50,570 --> 00:07:52,950 signed her discharge paperwork. Oh, it was improving. 143 00:07:53,690 --> 00:07:56,770 She needed the time to rehearse. Well, I wish she had taken the time to show up 144 00:07:56,770 --> 00:07:57,770 for a follow -up appointment. 145 00:07:58,520 --> 00:08:02,160 She could be at risk for a host of complications just from her degree of 146 00:08:02,160 --> 00:08:03,160 deconditioning alone. 147 00:08:03,600 --> 00:08:08,100 I have been at this a long time. And what we're dealing with is a textbook 148 00:08:08,100 --> 00:08:09,100 of stage fright. 149 00:08:10,200 --> 00:08:12,900 Fortunately, that's why we have understudies. 150 00:08:17,340 --> 00:08:19,800 Yeah. Thank you so much. I'm on my way. 151 00:08:20,520 --> 00:08:24,160 The shelter in Mott Haven has been tell on Sam. They need my credentials, so I 152 00:08:24,160 --> 00:08:25,160 have to head down there in person. 153 00:08:25,300 --> 00:08:26,780 Uh, the hospital gal is tonight. 154 00:08:27,890 --> 00:08:31,750 I finagled Dr. Wolf's plus one, assuming we'd have reason to celebrate. 155 00:08:32,309 --> 00:08:34,490 Do you think your mom could babysit? 156 00:08:34,710 --> 00:08:35,710 Oh, I don't know. 157 00:08:36,049 --> 00:08:37,150 It's kind of last minute. 158 00:08:37,890 --> 00:08:40,789 Yeah, it's cool. Yeah, no, I totally get it. 159 00:08:41,230 --> 00:08:42,309 Another time. Okay. 160 00:08:42,830 --> 00:08:44,410 Have you ever seen Marcus in a tux? 161 00:08:45,270 --> 00:08:49,390 I mean, I got your back, Meech, so you know I'll fight those ladies off for 162 00:08:49,410 --> 00:08:52,090 But just in case I'm outnumbered, you should probably come. 163 00:08:53,410 --> 00:08:54,550 I'll see what I can do. 164 00:09:01,770 --> 00:09:03,270 You've got like zero game. 165 00:09:04,630 --> 00:09:05,630 Zero. 166 00:09:10,270 --> 00:09:13,810 Dr. Fish, you have got to take me shopping. You are the best -dressed 167 00:09:13,810 --> 00:09:14,810 the outer borough. 168 00:09:15,190 --> 00:09:16,710 Thank you, Amelia. 169 00:09:17,030 --> 00:09:18,450 What do I owe this honor? 170 00:09:18,950 --> 00:09:21,290 Just making some last -minute adjustments for tonight. 171 00:09:21,590 --> 00:09:25,650 Hudson Oaks is sponsoring the gala. Yes, Dr. Landon told me that. She has a real 172 00:09:25,650 --> 00:09:27,390 hoot. And that hairstyle. 173 00:09:27,990 --> 00:09:28,990 Oh, Tracy. 174 00:09:30,390 --> 00:09:34,360 I just want... Bronx General to know that Hudson Oaks is here for you. We 175 00:09:34,360 --> 00:09:38,320 to be your go -to resource any time a patient might need long -term care. That 176 00:09:38,320 --> 00:09:42,700 is very generous, but we make all of our decisions on a case -by -case basis. 177 00:09:43,060 --> 00:09:44,520 Of course. You know best. 178 00:09:45,760 --> 00:09:46,679 Excuse me? 179 00:09:46,680 --> 00:09:47,680 Gorgeous bouquet. 180 00:09:47,740 --> 00:09:48,740 What is the occasion? 181 00:09:49,060 --> 00:09:54,300 They are from Wolfe. I am officially divorced today. 182 00:09:55,600 --> 00:09:56,600 Hallelujah. 183 00:09:58,569 --> 00:10:01,690 I finalized mine three years ago. Never looked back. 184 00:10:01,970 --> 00:10:05,030 Are you on the apps yet? Oh, well, I don't think I'm ready for all that. 185 00:10:05,310 --> 00:10:07,730 No, no, no, no, no. I can guide you through all the pitfalls. 186 00:10:08,810 --> 00:10:11,510 For starters, the camera adds three inches. 187 00:10:11,750 --> 00:10:12,750 Oh. Oh, hi. 188 00:10:12,990 --> 00:10:15,250 I don't know if it's pleasure to see you. Sorry. 189 00:10:15,730 --> 00:10:16,870 Face blinded in a rush. 190 00:10:17,170 --> 00:10:20,390 I have a ballerina who's a bit of a tough nut to crack. She could use some 191 00:10:20,390 --> 00:10:21,390 that Carol magic. 192 00:10:21,910 --> 00:10:23,370 Are you free? Yes. Good. 193 00:10:26,760 --> 00:10:29,040 Juliet, what happened right before you collapsed? 194 00:10:29,740 --> 00:10:31,540 You looked like you went somewhere else. 195 00:10:32,300 --> 00:10:34,060 Happens a lot when I'm dancing. 196 00:10:34,760 --> 00:10:40,520 I'll be in the middle of rehearsing and suddenly it's like I'm transported 197 00:10:40,520 --> 00:10:41,520 somewhere else. 198 00:10:47,080 --> 00:10:53,360 Sometimes it's like I'm freezing, trembling, cold in my bones, 199 00:10:53,440 --> 00:10:55,560 like my body is made of ice. 200 00:10:56,590 --> 00:10:58,770 Other times it feels like I'm choking. 201 00:10:59,490 --> 00:11:00,510 I can't breathe. 202 00:11:00,890 --> 00:11:04,670 I can't scream, but it's not even the worst of it. 203 00:11:06,170 --> 00:11:12,330 I try to get away, and then I feel sharp pain, like I'm being stabbed in the 204 00:11:12,330 --> 00:11:13,330 back repeatedly. 205 00:11:17,890 --> 00:11:18,950 And then it's over. 206 00:11:23,770 --> 00:11:25,270 Until it happens again. 207 00:11:28,620 --> 00:11:29,620 Can you help me? 208 00:11:36,100 --> 00:11:39,980 Some highlights from Julia's ICU stay. She was intubated, which would explain 209 00:11:39,980 --> 00:11:40,619 the choking. 210 00:11:40,620 --> 00:11:43,940 Ice packs were used to bring down her fever, hence freezing on stage. And she 211 00:11:43,940 --> 00:11:48,500 had a lumbar puncture, which she's reliving as being stabbed in the back. 212 00:11:48,500 --> 00:11:53,220 is this going? Our patient is experiencing ICU PTSD from her three 213 00:11:53,220 --> 00:11:53,859 the hospital. 214 00:11:53,860 --> 00:11:55,020 She's having flashbacks. 215 00:11:55,520 --> 00:11:59,580 And not to events that actually happened, but to the hallucination she 216 00:11:59,580 --> 00:12:02,920 she was sedated but delirious. Her mind is trying to make sense of everything 217 00:12:02,920 --> 00:12:03,920 that happened to her. 218 00:12:04,220 --> 00:12:07,880 Exposure therapy might be our best shot to get her through, but she needs to 219 00:12:07,880 --> 00:12:08,880 work her way up to that. 220 00:12:09,100 --> 00:12:12,100 With all due respect, what if this has nothing to do with the ICU? 221 00:12:12,780 --> 00:12:13,780 She's a dancer. 222 00:12:13,900 --> 00:12:14,900 I know the type. 223 00:12:14,920 --> 00:12:16,740 Dated a few. It's an unrelenting lifestyle. 224 00:12:16,940 --> 00:12:19,380 The diet, the hours on their feet, not to mention. 225 00:12:20,240 --> 00:12:22,760 Certain stimulants. You're a second year resident speaking to the head of 226 00:12:22,760 --> 00:12:26,260 psychiatry about a psych issue. I'm just voicing an alternative theory, which is 227 00:12:26,260 --> 00:12:28,720 what we do. I'd rather you keep your alternative theories to yourself. 228 00:12:29,120 --> 00:12:30,059 Or what? 229 00:12:30,060 --> 00:12:31,180 You're going to scream at me again? 230 00:12:31,380 --> 00:12:35,660 By all means, I would love to have a witness this time. I made a mistake with 231 00:12:35,660 --> 00:12:39,200 the Torres family. Why can't you let this go? Because your mistake almost 232 00:12:39,200 --> 00:12:40,600 my patient his life. Enough. 233 00:12:42,700 --> 00:12:45,260 And you've never made a mistake that cost a patient their life. 234 00:12:56,220 --> 00:12:59,380 Things aren't working out with my resident. I want Charlie Porter off my 235 00:12:59,680 --> 00:13:01,840 Out of the hospital would be ideal. Slow down. 236 00:13:02,620 --> 00:13:06,040 Did he do anything specific to warrant this? Yes. He's arrogant. He disagrees 237 00:13:06,040 --> 00:13:07,580 with me at every turn. He undermines me. 238 00:13:07,800 --> 00:13:10,380 He believes that practicing medicine his way is the only way. 239 00:13:10,780 --> 00:13:11,699 You're right. 240 00:13:11,700 --> 00:13:15,320 Who could work with someone like that? Dr. Porter tried to transfer Jorge 241 00:13:15,320 --> 00:13:18,840 to hospice without consulting me. But he didn't. And I'm guessing you set him 242 00:13:18,840 --> 00:13:19,920 straight, which is your job. 243 00:13:20,569 --> 00:13:23,570 Look, having a differing opinion isn't enough to fire someone, Wolf. If you 244 00:13:23,570 --> 00:13:26,650 think he's a bad doctor, it's your job to make him a better one. Normally, I'd 245 00:13:26,650 --> 00:13:29,270 agree with you, but Josh, I'm telling you, Porter is a lost cause. 246 00:13:34,670 --> 00:13:35,970 There's getting the best of you, Marcus. 247 00:13:36,310 --> 00:13:39,490 Things are going great between me and Michelle, but I can tell she's getting 248 00:13:39,490 --> 00:13:40,490 cold feet. 249 00:13:41,670 --> 00:13:45,690 You know, I was the one who broke her heart. I wasn't committed. I wasn't 250 00:13:45,850 --> 00:13:48,210 I was afraid to be a dad, but... 251 00:13:48,970 --> 00:13:50,290 I'm not going to screw it up again. 252 00:13:51,150 --> 00:13:52,630 I want to ask her to move in with me. 253 00:13:53,030 --> 00:13:54,570 Damn, grand gesture. 254 00:13:55,970 --> 00:13:59,410 I like it. I just want us to have a fresh start, you know? 255 00:14:03,830 --> 00:14:07,890 Okay, why do I feel like you're getting cold feet now? 256 00:14:08,730 --> 00:14:09,730 What's up? 257 00:14:12,390 --> 00:14:13,450 Damn, ear touch. 258 00:14:17,840 --> 00:14:23,820 When I went home to Dallas for Thanksgiving, I reconnected with one of 259 00:14:23,820 --> 00:14:24,820 team doctors. 260 00:14:25,220 --> 00:14:28,620 We got to talking, and he offered me a spot in his residency program. 261 00:14:29,140 --> 00:14:30,380 Oh, in Texas? 262 00:14:30,640 --> 00:14:32,220 They have a top -tier sports clinic. 263 00:14:33,000 --> 00:14:36,380 And I'll still be doing neuro, just in a sports context. 264 00:14:37,160 --> 00:14:41,300 I never imagined moving home anytime soon, but this is like my dream job. 265 00:14:43,280 --> 00:14:47,240 So why do I sense like you don't want to do it? And what's keeping you here? 266 00:14:47,850 --> 00:14:49,430 Ah, it's me, huh? 267 00:14:51,630 --> 00:14:52,230 You 268 00:14:52,230 --> 00:14:59,950 mentioned 269 00:14:59,950 --> 00:15:02,850 being intubated with a scary experience. 270 00:15:03,590 --> 00:15:04,590 Let's start there. 271 00:15:05,010 --> 00:15:09,310 I want you to follow the light with your eyes and tell me all about it. 272 00:15:11,770 --> 00:15:14,690 Before I fell unconscious, I... 273 00:15:16,780 --> 00:15:17,880 I couldn't catch my breath. 274 00:15:18,220 --> 00:15:23,180 When they intubated me, I panicked. They had to hold me down. It was awful. 275 00:15:23,700 --> 00:15:25,100 Okay, let's stay right there. 276 00:15:25,380 --> 00:15:28,640 Keep following the light and tell me what comes up. 277 00:15:30,120 --> 00:15:31,820 I couldn't relax my body. 278 00:15:32,320 --> 00:15:34,640 I could hear Thor's voice in my head. 279 00:15:36,100 --> 00:15:37,280 You're a stiff support. 280 00:15:38,040 --> 00:15:44,500 And how did that make you feel? Like a failure. I felt weak for being so 281 00:15:46,410 --> 00:15:49,110 Those are called negative self -belief. 282 00:15:49,870 --> 00:15:52,530 But I also remember telling Zora to shut up in my house. 283 00:15:52,750 --> 00:15:54,350 So? I stood up for myself. 284 00:15:54,730 --> 00:15:55,790 That's more positive. 285 00:15:56,150 --> 00:15:57,150 Let's go with that. 286 00:15:59,210 --> 00:16:01,350 Describe that memory for me one more time. 287 00:16:01,710 --> 00:16:03,130 I'm in the hospital. 288 00:16:04,130 --> 00:16:06,110 I'm sick. 289 00:16:06,370 --> 00:16:08,070 I feel like I can't breathe. 290 00:16:08,370 --> 00:16:10,590 That's okay. I need to get healthy. 291 00:16:10,950 --> 00:16:15,290 Doctors and nurses, they intubate me because they want me to get better. 292 00:16:15,690 --> 00:16:19,060 Scary. But nice having people take care of me. 293 00:16:19,260 --> 00:16:26,020 Makes me feel... Worthy. Do you often feel unworthy? 294 00:16:26,460 --> 00:16:28,360 It's the nature of the gig, Dr. Pierce. 295 00:16:28,620 --> 00:16:32,520 There are literally a thousand women waiting to replace me. Can you try to 296 00:16:32,520 --> 00:16:33,520 reframe that for me? 297 00:16:36,060 --> 00:16:39,040 I have worked my ass off to be the best at what I do. 298 00:16:39,660 --> 00:16:41,500 Thousands of women want to dance like me. 299 00:16:41,800 --> 00:16:44,260 But I am singular. 300 00:16:45,140 --> 00:16:46,140 Damn straight. 301 00:16:48,560 --> 00:16:51,160 We're still working on finding a hospital that will lift Sam. 302 00:16:51,880 --> 00:16:53,220 Sorry, I don't have better news. 303 00:16:53,640 --> 00:16:54,820 But I'm not giving up. 304 00:16:56,240 --> 00:17:00,760 You know, it's rare, the kind of attention you're giving him. Speaking of 305 00:17:00,900 --> 00:17:02,720 when was the last time you ate? 306 00:17:04,900 --> 00:17:07,079 Go get some food. 307 00:17:07,740 --> 00:17:08,839 Take care of yourself. 308 00:17:11,660 --> 00:17:12,660 Thank you. 309 00:17:21,589 --> 00:17:22,469 How's he looking? 310 00:17:22,470 --> 00:17:26,349 I was about to take his eyes, but sun settings are good, only intubated for 311 00:17:26,349 --> 00:17:27,829 neuro exam and airway protection. 312 00:17:33,270 --> 00:17:34,270 Dana? 313 00:17:35,550 --> 00:17:36,570 Tell me what you see. 314 00:17:42,410 --> 00:17:44,510 Unilaterally enlarged and sluggish pupils. 315 00:17:44,770 --> 00:17:47,650 His cerebral edema could be worsening. No, this isn't happening. 316 00:17:48,190 --> 00:17:52,390 Dr. Nichols can fix it, and we will get him lifted somewhere, and everything's 317 00:17:52,390 --> 00:17:53,390 going to be all right. 318 00:18:04,450 --> 00:18:11,350 I'm not dancing tonight, am I? That's up to you, Julia. 319 00:18:11,550 --> 00:18:15,370 We recommend that you remain in the hospital for one night, face down those 320 00:18:15,370 --> 00:18:16,410 fears before they get worse. 321 00:18:17,020 --> 00:18:21,360 It's what's called exposure therapy. We want to replace the terrifying narrative 322 00:18:21,360 --> 00:18:25,360 that your mind created with a real live one. This is the room where you spent 323 00:18:25,360 --> 00:18:27,020 three weeks with pneumonia. 324 00:18:30,640 --> 00:18:35,020 We have a detailed record of every blood draw, every IV drip, every fever 325 00:18:35,020 --> 00:18:36,020 medication. 326 00:18:36,300 --> 00:18:40,260 It'll give you a clear sense of what actually happened in here. Or... 327 00:18:40,490 --> 00:18:43,330 If you'd like, we can discharge you and you can make it in time for opening 328 00:18:43,330 --> 00:18:46,410 night. And we'll keep our fingers crossed that you won't have another 329 00:18:46,410 --> 00:18:47,910 stage. I'm Nico. 330 00:18:48,330 --> 00:18:51,230 I was one of your nurses when you were here. I assisted with your lumbar 331 00:18:51,230 --> 00:18:52,230 puncture. 332 00:18:54,850 --> 00:18:55,850 The rat king. 333 00:18:58,370 --> 00:19:00,310 I prefer short king, but I... 334 00:19:01,390 --> 00:19:05,290 And if you do decide to stay, you and I can binge watch my favorite Prima 335 00:19:05,290 --> 00:19:09,150 Ballerinas, The Real Housewives of Salt Lake City. The entire season one plot is 336 00:19:09,150 --> 00:19:10,150 smelling like hospital. 337 00:19:10,650 --> 00:19:12,350 Don't explain that to me. I don't want to know. 338 00:19:13,130 --> 00:19:15,450 I've sacrificed a lot to be a dancer. 339 00:19:16,290 --> 00:19:19,090 What, now I'm just supposed to risk it all to spend a night in a hospital room? 340 00:19:19,470 --> 00:19:22,130 Well, what if you're actually risking it all by leaving? 341 00:19:25,650 --> 00:19:28,690 Once I'm done with the procedure, Sam's co -acting will be tight and under 342 00:19:28,690 --> 00:19:32,290 control. Every second that the bolt is in his skull, there is a risk of 343 00:19:32,290 --> 00:19:34,830 bleeding. It is an ever -present danger. We'll monitor him around the clock. 344 00:19:35,090 --> 00:19:39,630 Hey. Silva got word from the nurses in transplant that there is a liver en 345 00:19:39,630 --> 00:19:43,070 to Bronx General, but the intended recipient spiked a fever. He and Sam 346 00:19:43,070 --> 00:19:43,729 simple type. 347 00:19:43,730 --> 00:19:44,730 It could be a match. 348 00:19:44,850 --> 00:19:48,190 We have to get him listed here. Dr. Kinney, even if it doesn't go to the 349 00:19:48,190 --> 00:19:50,770 patient, it could always go straight to someone else on the list. There's no 350 00:19:50,770 --> 00:19:51,770 guarantee. 351 00:19:52,030 --> 00:19:55,780 But... The head of the transplant committee, Dr. Walker, is back in town 352 00:19:55,780 --> 00:19:59,100 holiday gala tonight. I hear he has been persuaded in the past to take cases 353 00:19:59,100 --> 00:20:03,220 back to the committee. Apparently he's a bit of a sap. Maybe in person we could 354 00:20:03,220 --> 00:20:04,940 get him to see what his team missed on paper. 355 00:20:05,180 --> 00:20:06,380 You do your part, we'll do ours. 356 00:20:07,300 --> 00:20:09,460 Let's get dusted up. We're going to get Sam a liver. 357 00:20:12,240 --> 00:20:14,980 Dr. Nichols suggested I pull at this guy's heartstrings. 358 00:20:15,920 --> 00:20:16,839 Any tips? 359 00:20:16,840 --> 00:20:20,360 If he doesn't take Sam's side after hearing his story, he doesn't have a 360 00:20:21,140 --> 00:20:22,140 Agreed. 361 00:20:22,600 --> 00:20:23,600 Just be you, Kimmy. 362 00:20:24,000 --> 00:20:26,920 Guys, I just met with a shelter that knows Sam. 363 00:20:27,260 --> 00:20:30,940 He stayed there a bunch, and apparently he showed up at their mobile blood bank 364 00:20:30,940 --> 00:20:34,660 every month to donate blood. Like clockwork, they said. He never missed 365 00:20:34,660 --> 00:20:35,680 had it all logged. Look. 366 00:20:35,900 --> 00:20:36,900 Oh, my God. 367 00:20:37,800 --> 00:20:42,500 This demonstrates commitment and organization, and it shows that Sam can 368 00:20:42,500 --> 00:20:44,080 post -transplant immunosuppressants. 369 00:20:44,920 --> 00:20:47,540 Michelle, this is huge. Thank you. 370 00:20:51,280 --> 00:20:52,280 You look great. 371 00:20:53,900 --> 00:20:54,900 Nice work. 372 00:20:55,700 --> 00:20:57,680 So, uh, meet you at the gala? 373 00:20:58,240 --> 00:21:01,660 Well, actually, um, I was thinking maybe you should just go solo. 374 00:21:02,340 --> 00:21:06,060 Liam throws a tantrum if I'm not there at bedtime, you know that. So it's 375 00:21:06,060 --> 00:21:09,460 probably just easier if I stay home and you go do your thing. 376 00:21:11,100 --> 00:21:15,500 Why do I feel like you're trying to wreck this before it even starts? I 377 00:21:15,500 --> 00:21:16,500 we were all in. 378 00:21:20,170 --> 00:21:24,670 I know I'm crazy about you, Van. I always have been, and I probably always 379 00:21:24,670 --> 00:21:29,050 be. I don't know if I could handle another heartbreak, but I know Liam 380 00:21:29,050 --> 00:21:32,470 No, no, no. There won't be another heartbreak. You're it for me. 381 00:21:33,170 --> 00:21:37,030 I don't think love is about butterflies. 382 00:21:37,890 --> 00:21:42,650 I think it's about finding someone who calms your nervous system. 383 00:21:43,270 --> 00:21:47,390 And I want to be that person for you because you're that person for me. 384 00:21:48,670 --> 00:21:49,670 All right. 385 00:21:49,680 --> 00:21:52,880 I promise you, okay? I'm not going anywhere. 386 00:22:05,000 --> 00:22:06,000 Okay. 387 00:22:06,880 --> 00:22:07,940 I'll see you there. 388 00:22:09,980 --> 00:22:11,160 Yeah? Yeah. 389 00:22:23,050 --> 00:22:24,029 Hey, it's okay. 390 00:22:24,030 --> 00:22:26,010 The monitor is just measuring your heart rate. 391 00:22:26,430 --> 00:22:28,430 I can turn the volume down if you'd like. 392 00:22:28,630 --> 00:22:32,430 No, it's okay. I need to experience all the triggers. 393 00:22:32,630 --> 00:22:37,070 I can't dance the PTSD. I need to get better, even if it means the earth can 394 00:22:37,070 --> 00:22:38,070 me out for weeks. 395 00:22:38,250 --> 00:22:39,550 It's infuriating, isn't it? 396 00:22:40,350 --> 00:22:42,270 The way that our mentors punish us. 397 00:22:42,670 --> 00:22:45,450 I find it motivating. 398 00:22:46,930 --> 00:22:48,510 I had this epiphany today. 399 00:22:50,170 --> 00:22:51,930 I don't want her approval. 400 00:22:54,380 --> 00:23:00,740 I want her to look at me on stage one day and realize that I'm better than 401 00:23:03,980 --> 00:23:07,180 She doesn't know now, but she's creating a monster. 402 00:23:16,760 --> 00:23:20,680 Hudson Oaks must have some deep pockets because this party is nice. 403 00:23:22,040 --> 00:23:25,290 I'm going to... Take a quick lap, see if I can spot any committee members. 404 00:23:33,190 --> 00:23:36,190 One night with him doesn't get you wherever you're married. 405 00:23:37,250 --> 00:23:39,790 Shoot your shots at your peers. 406 00:23:40,450 --> 00:23:41,750 If somebody else will. 407 00:23:42,990 --> 00:23:46,870 Thanks for telling me. 408 00:23:49,330 --> 00:23:50,590 Any eyes on the target? 409 00:23:50,930 --> 00:23:51,930 Not yet. 410 00:23:52,810 --> 00:23:54,970 I came up empty on finding anyone on the transplant committee. 411 00:23:55,170 --> 00:23:56,730 But no stakeout is complete without? 412 00:23:57,130 --> 00:23:58,129 Pigs don't like it. 413 00:23:58,130 --> 00:23:59,130 Two o 'clock. 414 00:23:59,830 --> 00:24:00,830 That's Walker. 415 00:24:01,190 --> 00:24:02,610 Okay, it's now or never. 416 00:24:03,050 --> 00:24:04,790 Do you want me to... No, I got this. 417 00:24:05,110 --> 00:24:07,510 I've been practicing my speech in my head all day. 418 00:24:11,270 --> 00:24:12,270 So I let him know. 419 00:24:12,330 --> 00:24:16,450 Can you play a little worse? I can call this game a charity case. Write it off 420 00:24:16,450 --> 00:24:17,450 in my taxes. 421 00:24:21,450 --> 00:24:23,190 Dr. Walker, can I talk to you for a second? 422 00:24:24,350 --> 00:24:26,130 Certainly. Excuse us, gentlemen. 423 00:24:26,590 --> 00:24:27,590 Of course. 424 00:24:28,130 --> 00:24:29,710 Hi, I'm Dr. Erica Kinney. 425 00:24:30,030 --> 00:24:31,590 I'm a neurologist at Bronx General. 426 00:24:31,930 --> 00:24:35,750 I wanted to talk to you about one of our patients your committee denied listing 427 00:24:35,750 --> 00:24:36,750 for a transplant. 428 00:24:37,130 --> 00:24:40,030 Sam Mapesberry is in our care with acute liver failure. 429 00:24:40,330 --> 00:24:43,790 There is a liver arriving right now that we believe he is a match for. 430 00:24:44,510 --> 00:24:46,070 Sam is on death's doorstep. 431 00:24:46,440 --> 00:24:49,880 But if you put him on that list... There were a number of reasons we decided 432 00:24:49,880 --> 00:24:53,860 that case was a poor candidate for transplant. Yes, but I have new relevant 433 00:24:53,860 --> 00:24:57,420 information that proves that he is capable of handling post -transplant 434 00:24:57,480 --> 00:25:01,320 All the reasons we declined to list your patient remain true. This is all too 435 00:25:01,320 --> 00:25:03,700 little, too late. I can't take this back to the committee. 436 00:25:24,270 --> 00:25:25,730 If I could have your attention, please. 437 00:25:27,190 --> 00:25:29,310 Thank you all for coming tonight. 438 00:25:30,870 --> 00:25:35,750 None of this would be possible without my mother, who planned this whole event 439 00:25:35,750 --> 00:25:37,050 even after she retired. 440 00:25:42,150 --> 00:25:46,090 My question for everyone here tonight is who deserves care? 441 00:25:46,690 --> 00:25:51,130 People always say doctors are the heroes. That's a bit aggrandizing for my 442 00:25:51,130 --> 00:25:54,780 taste. I know firsthand that patients are the real heroes. 443 00:25:55,420 --> 00:26:01,140 Like a young man named Sam Mapesbury, who has been grappling with mental 444 00:26:01,140 --> 00:26:08,140 and subsequently acute liver failure. He is in a hospital room at Bronx General 445 00:26:08,140 --> 00:26:10,860 right now, fighting for his life. 446 00:26:11,660 --> 00:26:17,820 He will die without a new liver. But the harsh reality is that patients with 447 00:26:17,820 --> 00:26:20,180 mental illness are often summarily rejected. 448 00:26:21,160 --> 00:26:22,600 from organ transplant lists. 449 00:26:22,980 --> 00:26:27,920 Every other hospital in this city found a reason not to list Mr. Mapesbury for a 450 00:26:27,920 --> 00:26:28,920 liver. 451 00:26:29,160 --> 00:26:35,580 But at Bronx General, we have doctors like Bernard Walker, the head of our 452 00:26:35,580 --> 00:26:40,000 transplant team who didn't hesitate for a moment to recognize this young man's 453 00:26:40,000 --> 00:26:42,980 potential and put him at the top of the list. 454 00:26:43,840 --> 00:26:48,880 Dr. Walker is giving Sam Mapesbury that second chance at life. 455 00:26:49,360 --> 00:26:54,480 And it's because of people like him that I am proud to work at Bronx General, 456 00:26:54,700 --> 00:26:59,920 where we believe that everyone deserves care. 457 00:27:01,220 --> 00:27:02,220 Thank you. 458 00:27:11,240 --> 00:27:15,580 Bernard, what an absolute angel you are. 459 00:27:16,270 --> 00:27:22,310 For any of you motivated to donate, this is what your dollars are going for. 460 00:27:22,390 --> 00:27:24,350 Thank you again, Bernard. 461 00:27:32,690 --> 00:27:38,770 Hudson Oaks would like to match any donations up to $100 ,000. 462 00:27:50,209 --> 00:27:52,050 What the hell did you just do? 463 00:27:53,170 --> 00:27:55,410 Uh, I made you a hero. 464 00:27:56,230 --> 00:27:58,550 And I helped you save a young man's life. 465 00:27:58,870 --> 00:28:00,110 Our donors seem to approve. 466 00:28:01,910 --> 00:28:04,870 Or I can walk on stage and say that Dr. Wolf had it wrong. 467 00:28:05,390 --> 00:28:08,310 That you actually don't want to list him and that you're going to let him die. 468 00:28:09,050 --> 00:28:10,050 Fine. 469 00:28:10,390 --> 00:28:11,349 You win. 470 00:28:11,350 --> 00:28:12,370 He's on the list. 471 00:28:12,570 --> 00:28:13,570 But know this. 472 00:28:14,050 --> 00:28:16,790 I have a very long memory. 473 00:28:32,400 --> 00:28:33,400 Excuse me. 474 00:28:40,600 --> 00:28:44,060 Carol, is your ex -husband on the premises? 475 00:28:44,540 --> 00:28:46,200 What? No, why? 476 00:28:47,120 --> 00:28:50,520 Because that is what the kids will call a revenge dress. 477 00:28:52,480 --> 00:28:53,660 Oh, this old thing. 478 00:28:54,840 --> 00:28:57,900 Well, you clean up pretty well yourself, Dr. 479 00:28:58,120 --> 00:28:59,120 Thor. 480 00:28:59,189 --> 00:29:01,830 Careful, Dr. Pierce. My ego thrives on validation. 481 00:29:02,910 --> 00:29:05,270 Speaking of which, I've got to hand it to your boy, Wolf, for that speech. 482 00:29:05,490 --> 00:29:08,970 He is annoying as all hell, but when it works, it works. 483 00:29:09,250 --> 00:29:11,450 Um, I prefer audacious. 484 00:29:12,510 --> 00:29:15,370 But, yes, sometimes spontaneity does drive me to drink. 485 00:29:15,570 --> 00:29:16,570 Mm -hmm. 486 00:29:16,690 --> 00:29:17,690 Oh, 487 00:29:18,550 --> 00:29:19,550 Dr. Thornbrand. 488 00:29:19,970 --> 00:29:23,490 Well, contrary to popular belief, you may, in fact, be a gentleman. 489 00:29:23,850 --> 00:29:25,190 Is that my drink? 490 00:29:29,020 --> 00:29:30,220 Maybe I said just vodka. 491 00:29:30,500 --> 00:29:31,500 Oh. 492 00:29:31,780 --> 00:29:33,540 Dr. Pierce, your dress is fire. 493 00:29:33,960 --> 00:29:35,200 Thank you, Justine. 494 00:29:37,240 --> 00:29:38,240 Oh, 495 00:29:38,460 --> 00:29:41,640 I didn't realize you two were... A total heat score. 496 00:29:42,980 --> 00:29:46,300 JK. No, I just worked out in the ED a lot, so it was only a matter of time 497 00:29:46,300 --> 00:29:48,080 before we caught a vibe. 498 00:29:53,880 --> 00:29:57,380 So she's how you know what the kids are saying. 499 00:30:02,920 --> 00:30:05,760 What an inspiring evening this has been. 500 00:30:06,180 --> 00:30:12,260 Every year we invite one of our most promising residents to share the story 501 00:30:12,260 --> 00:30:13,540 why they became a doctor. 502 00:30:13,960 --> 00:30:18,620 Please help me welcome the newest member of our neurology department, Dr. 503 00:30:18,860 --> 00:30:19,860 Charlie Porter. 504 00:30:21,620 --> 00:30:23,580 Hi. Can you see me a little bit? No. 505 00:30:29,340 --> 00:30:30,340 Thank you. 506 00:30:30,480 --> 00:30:32,120 Dr. Landon for inviting me to speak. 507 00:30:33,940 --> 00:30:39,440 It's ironic that I work in a hospital because for years I avoided them. 508 00:30:40,560 --> 00:30:44,900 When I was 10 years old, my mother was diagnosed with a malignant brain tumor. 509 00:30:45,380 --> 00:30:49,020 Before her diagnosis, I remember she was happy all the time. 510 00:30:49,340 --> 00:30:52,000 Her eyes would light up when I walked in her room. 511 00:30:52,340 --> 00:30:53,620 She never missed the bedtime. 512 00:30:53,940 --> 00:30:58,980 And before I'd fall asleep, she'd say to me, I'm so lucky. 513 00:31:00,040 --> 00:31:01,100 to be your mom. 514 00:31:03,620 --> 00:31:04,880 But I was the lucky one. 515 00:31:06,520 --> 00:31:08,820 Lord, I am not going to be able to get through this. 516 00:31:10,220 --> 00:31:12,140 My mom was one in a million. 517 00:31:12,900 --> 00:31:16,360 After she got sick, she missed a lot of bedtimes. 518 00:31:16,880 --> 00:31:19,360 I remember the light in her eyes faded. 519 00:31:19,680 --> 00:31:22,440 I remember that she suffered immensely. 520 00:31:23,520 --> 00:31:25,300 But most of all, I remember her doctor. 521 00:31:26,480 --> 00:31:33,480 He was young, smart, dedicated and i looked up to him he told my dad 522 00:31:33,480 --> 00:31:37,880 that he'd be with us every step of the way and he was and he is the reason that 523 00:31:37,880 --> 00:31:44,740 i pursued medicine not because he saved my mom but 524 00:31:44,740 --> 00:31:51,580 because he dangled the possibility that he could he let my family cling to 525 00:31:51,580 --> 00:31:56,600 that belief which is why we were so completely unprepared when she died 526 00:31:58,120 --> 00:31:59,120 You okay? 527 00:32:00,940 --> 00:32:05,980 When I got to medical school, I realized that my mother never had any chance of 528 00:32:05,980 --> 00:32:07,120 surviving her prognosis. 529 00:32:07,780 --> 00:32:14,620 I realized that her doctor sold her a fantasy because he couldn't bear to help 530 00:32:14,620 --> 00:32:15,860 her face the truth. 531 00:32:16,560 --> 00:32:21,000 I believe that as doctors, we are not in the business of selling fantasies. I 532 00:32:21,000 --> 00:32:23,860 believe that we are in the business of telling the truth. 533 00:32:25,840 --> 00:32:27,540 So all I can hope... 534 00:32:30,320 --> 00:32:35,560 is that when I'm honest with my patients, I'm making my mom proud. 535 00:32:44,600 --> 00:32:45,620 This is a deep spray. 536 00:32:47,080 --> 00:32:47,959 It's okay. 537 00:32:47,960 --> 00:32:48,960 It's okay. 538 00:32:50,020 --> 00:32:51,020 Wait, wait, wait. 539 00:32:51,140 --> 00:32:52,099 It's okay. 540 00:32:52,100 --> 00:32:53,320 We got him lifted. 541 00:32:54,520 --> 00:32:55,560 We got him a liver. 542 00:32:56,340 --> 00:32:57,340 It's a match. 543 00:32:58,250 --> 00:33:00,130 He's going into surgery right now. 544 00:33:04,050 --> 00:33:05,990 I can't believe it. 545 00:33:07,210 --> 00:33:08,850 I can't believe it. 546 00:33:14,190 --> 00:33:15,190 It's okay. 547 00:33:18,750 --> 00:33:19,750 It's okay. 548 00:33:25,250 --> 00:33:27,490 You look upset, Dr. Wolf. 549 00:33:28,480 --> 00:33:29,980 Was it because I upstaged you? 550 00:33:30,220 --> 00:33:33,300 You didn't come work for me to learn from the best. You came because what? 551 00:33:33,360 --> 00:33:36,340 to punish me? I wanted to meet the doctor who ruined my life. 552 00:33:37,420 --> 00:33:40,360 Make sure that you would never ruin anyone else's. So you want to get me 553 00:33:40,560 --> 00:33:41,580 No, it wouldn't be the first time. 554 00:33:41,900 --> 00:33:45,060 Charlie, when I was treating your mom, I was young. I was learning. 555 00:33:46,280 --> 00:33:51,160 I still am, but she, she didn't want to give up. She refused to give up. She 556 00:33:51,160 --> 00:33:55,480 wanted to keep fighting. I cared. No, don't, don't do your whole empathy 557 00:33:55,620 --> 00:33:56,620 You were her doctor. 558 00:33:56,880 --> 00:33:57,880 I was her son. 559 00:33:58,280 --> 00:34:04,000 I care deeply, not you. I know what it's like to lose a parent. No, you don't. 560 00:34:04,160 --> 00:34:05,300 Your father's alive. 561 00:34:06,240 --> 00:34:09,080 He just chose not to be with you. 562 00:34:09,780 --> 00:34:11,699 Twice, from what I've heard. 563 00:34:12,280 --> 00:34:13,280 You're angry. 564 00:34:13,520 --> 00:34:18,000 I understand that. But lying to me, infiltrating my department, trying to 565 00:34:18,000 --> 00:34:19,820 revenge is not going to bring her back. 566 00:34:20,080 --> 00:34:24,960 If you think this is just about my mom, maybe you really weren't with us every 567 00:34:24,960 --> 00:34:25,960 step of the way. 568 00:34:27,690 --> 00:34:31,810 My father couldn't handle all of the suffering that you put her through. 569 00:34:32,489 --> 00:34:33,770 So he hit the bottle. 570 00:34:34,750 --> 00:34:38,690 Hard. Four years after my mom died, he drank himself to death. 571 00:34:41,370 --> 00:34:45,530 I have been alone since I was 14, Wolf. 572 00:34:47,790 --> 00:34:48,810 I'm so sorry. 573 00:34:49,710 --> 00:34:52,469 I don't forgive you. Not processing trauma. 574 00:34:54,090 --> 00:34:55,489 It can break a person. 575 00:35:12,110 --> 00:35:13,730 What is this? An address. 576 00:35:14,950 --> 00:35:16,470 It's where your father is. 577 00:35:18,170 --> 00:35:20,830 It wasn't very hard to find either, but I don't think you even tried, did you? 578 00:35:23,390 --> 00:35:28,550 Oh, like you said, not processing trauma can break a person's soul. 579 00:35:29,810 --> 00:35:30,870 Let's see who breaks first. 580 00:36:00,589 --> 00:36:03,390 Have yourself. 581 00:36:18,060 --> 00:36:21,220 A merry little Christmas. 582 00:36:23,760 --> 00:36:28,440 Let your heart be light. 583 00:36:33,240 --> 00:36:34,240 Well, 584 00:36:35,440 --> 00:36:37,420 what's going on? Was Charlie's speech about... 585 00:36:50,890 --> 00:36:52,630 Looking good, Dr. Nichols. 586 00:36:53,250 --> 00:36:55,890 You sure you're not into women? 587 00:36:57,070 --> 00:36:59,370 Not since basic training. 588 00:37:06,030 --> 00:37:07,290 This is what I miss. 589 00:37:08,710 --> 00:37:11,090 Who embarrassed themselves this year? 590 00:37:11,350 --> 00:37:14,370 Ah, I believe that might have been me. 591 00:37:15,810 --> 00:37:16,810 Impossible. 592 00:37:20,230 --> 00:37:21,230 Hey, can I ask? 593 00:37:23,490 --> 00:37:27,830 Have you noticed anything off about Wolf? 594 00:37:33,190 --> 00:37:34,830 I miss Jen Shah. 595 00:37:35,690 --> 00:37:37,150 She's in federal prison now. 596 00:37:43,570 --> 00:37:46,030 My friend's at the ballet. 597 00:37:48,310 --> 00:37:50,550 Nina just got a... Standing ovation. 598 00:37:55,390 --> 00:37:56,390 Good for her. 599 00:37:57,870 --> 00:37:59,330 Every dog deserves her day. 600 00:38:10,890 --> 00:38:12,250 Sam's almost out of surgery. 601 00:38:12,890 --> 00:38:14,090 I just checked in. 602 00:38:14,670 --> 00:38:15,710 Zero complications. 603 00:38:19,150 --> 00:38:20,290 Sounds like a reason to celebrate. 604 00:38:26,190 --> 00:38:32,010 You did an incredible thing 605 00:38:32,010 --> 00:38:34,350 getting Sam on that list. 606 00:38:34,950 --> 00:38:37,070 I think Wolf gets the credit for that one. 607 00:38:37,350 --> 00:38:38,770 But that would have never happened without you. 608 00:38:40,870 --> 00:38:42,210 You saved his life. 609 00:38:43,090 --> 00:38:44,090 You did. 610 00:38:47,230 --> 00:38:48,230 You're amazing. 611 00:39:20,740 --> 00:39:25,020 A merry little Christmas. 612 00:40:25,130 --> 00:40:26,130 You get stood up? 613 00:40:26,550 --> 00:40:27,690 I think so. 614 00:40:29,130 --> 00:40:30,130 It's fine. 615 00:40:30,550 --> 00:40:32,390 Probably putting too much pressure on her. 616 00:40:34,290 --> 00:40:36,350 She'll come around once she sees you play kickball. 617 00:41:41,780 --> 00:41:42,780 Greg, we'll be right ahead.